Trouble figuring emotions regarding relationship
I've been online dating for 5 months now and I love him a LOT but he loves me more, in fact he wants to marry me a few years later but I don't think we are meant for eachother, I don't see that spark even though I love him so much. Yesterday I told him I didn't wanna get married cause we're different people living in different cities, and I don't see us as the forever kind, and he ended it saying we'd just be friends as he can't do a casual relationship, cause relationships have to have a goal for him, and I'm super hurt and way too attached to him so I don't wanna let go, but at the same time I know I'm causing him pain, I don't know what to do
@vulcantron
hi! it sounds like you don't think you and him are meant for each other because you don't see the spark, and that completely makes sense! it sounds like a very challenging situation to be in, and it's okay to not know what to do! this was posted a while ago, so how is everything now? 
(also, i moved your post to the relationship and friendship support subcommunity in the dating issues/tips subforum because it's more relevant to your post!)
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@vulcantron
You two are just going with the flow. He wants to marry you yet you don't want to for your own reasons.
I feel you on this subject. I am afraid that I dont love my partner but he gives me everything and will do anything for me. I will do the same for him. but i seem to be annoyed with him all the time and sometimes i dont even want to have a conversation with him. We get along pretty well. I love him for how he treats me and wont waver from me. I love him for how he is with my son and my family. My family loves him. He is a great guy, but I am afraid that i dont love him the way you are supposed to love someone and live a happy, satisfying life. I am worried that i am with him to help financially. But i tell myself that is not the case because i can do life on my own like i have before. For me it seems like 80% of the time i just want to be alone. the other 20% i am happy with him when we do things or that is the percentage that i dont feel annoyed with him.