Best friend Troubles

I fell out with my friend last year and she ruined my life. She seems to have told everyone a load of lies about what happened during the time we fell out and after as everyone around her seems to now have developed a problem with me that wasnt there before.

the way she treated me caused me extreme anxiety and depression and I was paranoid about going out incase I bumped into her and her new friends as theyre so intimidating and nasty. She got a new best friend within weeks and turned her back on me and lied about so many things and was beyond horrible to me

we didnt speak for a year but recently I decided to reach out to her and try to resolve some of it enough to be civil because it was playing on my mind 24/7 and I couldnt stand it anymore. I was so angry at her but I knew I had done some things wrong I needed to apologise for too

. Meeting her I seen she completely changed and shes not someone I ever want to be close with again because I can see all the nasty traits are still there and I will never let myself get that hurt again as it was unbearable at the time going through the things she done to me.

i dont want to be angry at her anymore as I know I care about her as it upsets me so much but when we met I was so emotional and upset and she sat emotionless and didnt apologise once

I thought meeting up would help but I still think about her and the situation all the time and I just want a way to stop it.

i just dwell so much on it