Distant friend

Dear Best Friend, I'm sorry if I was wasnt good enough for you like your other friends. I'm sorry if I had a lot of problems I had to deal with. I'm sorry if I hurt you or made it seem like I didn't care. but it hurts me to see you start to replace me in our friendship that I thought was genuine and I loved. I guess you didn't feel the same. you said you were there for me, but at the end of the day you were happy and were too busy hanging out with your friends, I didn't want to put that burden on you. I'm sorry if I got jealous or insecure at any point. I just didn't want to lose you. but I can't hide the fact any longer, that it is clear that you care about them more. I need to expect that I'm not your first person on your list anymore. but thank you for making me realize that. I need to learn to take better care of myself and not expect people to always be there for me when I'm sad. yeah I'm still upset and confused by everything happening. but at least you are finally happy and loving life like you wanted to. I won't have to deal with always being the only one checking in, trying to put this friendship first anymore. I guess things happen for a reason. I will still miss you so much, your hugs, late night FaceTime calls, you calming me down when I'm sad, tell me that you love me and that I'm important to you. I still want to fix things but I know that you are just hanging out with them, who you care about more. I need to move on and accept it. I hope you are doing good.