Friendship IN GOOD and Bad times

Helo, I am ca. 25 years Gold and I made some experiences about friendships. I am a very romantic Person, full of fantasy is in My head and I love to dream. When I meet people they never appreciate My person but they should. Never forget how you feel is not just subjective, it is like you see the world and how you feel like when people come and talk to you. Some really Doesnt notice how worth you are, how worth I am. They could Open their heart and be warm to you. ... But they dont do it Often. So what I wanted to Tell, I dont have friends in good and on Bad Times, with a Lots of people I loose contact. And I know it is not My fault people are so desinterested in me. I am not boring Or stupid. There are quite no reasons to look at me like an alien. The last good friend I remember I had with 14 years. since then I see desert. ... Normally everyone find someone, but me not. :-( ...that is what I wanted to tell you.