I push people away
My gf is very jealous and for 10 years it has just been me and her . I wasn't allowed friends but she was . For the past 9 months I had a friend I have had to keep this friendship a secret . But I don't know how to be a friend anymore . So I have pushed and pushed that friend away and I finally think I've pushed to hard and this time it's over . I'm so lonely. I had a friend but I pushed her away .
A relationship that seeks to control or restrict your ability to have other healthy and normal friendships is harmful and dysfunctional, even if that person loves you in other ways. You may want to consider seeing a professional about this and speaking with them about the nature of your relationship to your girlfriend. They may be able to help you set boundaries and assert your needs in a healthy and respectful way. You deserve happiness and friendship outside of a romance.