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I have a group of friends (4 of us) and we used to be super close when we first met in sophomore year. they were all supportive and we were pretty close. but lately I have been feeling like I don't really matter to them. they never check up on me anymore and kinda ignore me (2 of them do this and the other one doesn't really in there a lot). I always check up on them and make sure they are loved. I just get so drained giving them 100% when I don't even get 50% back. I completely understand people having their own troubles and needing time to themselves and I understand them needing their own time. just it would be nice to have a check in once in a while and not just between they care. and I'm always making sure they are happy. it just gets so hard