Meant to be alone?
since I was 5 I’ve never had any friends, I had a few, but they’d always end up hating me. It’s just gotten worse as I’ve grown up. No one ever wants to be my friend. They never stick around. 2 people who I thought wanted to be my friend…. They blocked me for no reason. I didn’t do anything wrong, I read the whole conversation back and I didn’t do anything wrong.
i now know that I am meant to be alone. Maybe that was the plan all along. Break me down until I snap. I no longer trust anything or anyone.
i supposedly have a “best friend” but he barely speaks to me and takes sometimes weeks to reply. I just want one proper friend that will always be there. Now if feels like I’m going to have to go back and make up my friends. Like I did when I was a kid.
i don’t want to be alone, it’s not fun. When you’re on your own all day every day, every night it grates on you. It makes you a bitter horrible person inside. I feel so hated by the world. I literally feel like anyone I meet in the world will just instantly hate me and block me. Maybe I’m just better off alone. I don’t know what to do anymore.
@DestroyedWithin I have the same issue I lost my group of friends in 2020 it's hard but I just learned to do my own thing and let things happen naturally they were toxic and sometimes would exclude me but idk if it was on purpose.
The problem is that I’m really ill. I have several chronic illnesses and I’m going blind. It feels like they are all leaving because they feel like I will become to much of a burden for a friend so they decided to kick me out of friend groups.
i just don’t want to be alone when I do eventually go blind. I always have panic attacks about the future and being alone. I’m not bothered about a relationship just friends.
I’m sorry you’re going through a tough time. But here, you are not alone. You’re not a burden at all. Your struggles are not a justification for them leaving you, they’re just not the people meant to be in your life because there is something better out there. Try to be in the now, in this present. Distract your mind by making yourself busy within your capabilities. 😇 Keep talking here. There are wonderful people here who will take you with open arms.
