My Friend Chose His Own Entertainment Over Something I Crucially Needed. Is There Any Way To Trust Him Again?

I (24M) am disabled. Right now, I only have the spoons to attend college. I have tried working. It did not work out. Well, my health went downhill last semester, causing me to fall behind in my courses. Despite reaching out and trying to get caught up, I failed every class I was enrolled in. I looked into a SAP appeal and all the documentation needed. Unfortunately, I could not get an appointment with my PCP before she had gone on vacation. She wouldn't be back until the day of the appeal deadline and my therapist... Refused to write a letter of support for my appeal (I no longer see him for other reasons).

The only other person I had to help document my health issues was my friend, Bram, (24M). Bram had helped me do the research and even said if there was anything I needed help with, to contact him and he would help.

After getting approval from the financial aid department, I asked him to write a letter stating what had happened to me was true. I sent everything he needed. I even created a checklist/outline so that he could make sure it was to the finacial aid department's standards. I even sent my statement for him to proofread for me. I had all I needed for the appeal, all I needed was his letter.

After a week and nothing, I reached out. He apologized and said he had been busy, but would get to it the next day. No problem, life happens.

Day after day, I see him on social media discussing new animes he's binge watched, showing off new things he'd purchased for himself, progress on Honkai Star Rail, and even talking about he Stray Kids concert he was traveling out of state for.

It's the week of the deadline. I see he's working on fan letters for the members of Stray Kids. I ask about my letter. Again, apologies that he's been busy but will get something done that night. Nothing.

He goes to his concert without telling me he couldn't do it. The one thing he complains about is people not communicating with him. Where was my communication? I gave him chance after chance to tell me he couldn't do it. I couldn't ask my mom. She's my caretaker and helping her aging mother as well on top of working a job that helps us barely scrape by.

Yes, he posts pics of how much fun he had. How he will never forget the experience. Today, after the deadline, he reaches out.

"I'm so sorry that I did not write that letter for you. I was going to do it, I swear. Time just got away from me and I had no free time like I thought I would have because I got so busy."

I haven't responded. I've been sleeping the last two days. I can't afford tuition. He knows this. I had to drop my classes because I couldn't pay. I might not be able to go back, because I'm unsure how long after the ineligibility verdict I have before I have to prove I'm worthy, which is by paying out of pocket.

I'm hurt. I'm angry. I haven't stopped crying. I haven't even replied to him. I'm not even sure what to say! Is there anything I can say? I don't want him thinking he doesn't deserve to be happy but God... Did he just prove that I don't matter. If I'm not some big *** anime woman or a Korean man who can dance and sing... How much of his time am I even worth?

I can't even talk to anyone else about this! I don't want drama, I don't want to be blamed for being irresponsible, I don't want to be told to forgive him. I don't know what to do.

Please.. help.