Wondering what's wrong with me.
As much as I would like to go in depth on who I am, I'm a little cautious about online communities. I'll just go by J or Jsanti. I'm an adult in my early twenties, I work at a flower shop, and I have an interest in making videos for YouTube.
The thing I wanted to ask was what is wrong with me. I have a hard time making friends, and when I do I never understand why anyone would be a friend to me. I never feel like I have much to offer anyone. I do have a fiance who has been doing her best to encourage me, but I feel like i never deserved to even know her in the first place.
I'm not amazing at anything, I have had small hobbies in the past I no longer take part in due to feelings of self doubt. Sometimes I wonder if I were to disappear, who would even notice? I don't seem to leave much of an influence on people. And about those friends I had: I haven't talked to any of them in a long time because I stopped getting replies from them. I just want to know why I feel this way and what I can do so I don't mess up my soon to be marriage.
Hey I think putting yourself would be a good idea like maybe call up one of your friends and see if they have any other good friends that you could meet. It's pretty neat that you work at a flower shop, you are an amazing person and you don't need a bunch of hobbies to define you. Even though you're friends haven't talked to you in awhile you could try and say 'hey long time no see wanna hang out or have lunch sometime?' That might help.
@Allyxcat
It's not that simple. I moved to a new state a couple months back and haven't talked to these people in years. It's usually because I felt unwelcome in their circles or I said or did something that put them off.
@Jsanti--I moved your thread to the Friendship section.
I'm the same I don't have any friends I met up with an old friend once and he didn't seem like he wanted to see me also there was a huge awkward silince we hardly talked I felt it was my fault
Never mind. Over it. Turns out it didn't matter in the first place. I'm pretty good on my own. No one to judge me or anything. Sounds better than anything I can thing of. Forget I mentioned it. Shoot, go ahead and delete this thread because it amounted to nothing. As pointless as anything.
Hey, you didn't tell us you moved states. It's okay, do you work with anyone that you could become friends with ?