A girl told me I creeped her out when I was doing nothing
I can't even begin to describe how horrible this makes me feel. I hate being treated like a future *** for absolutely no reason. What really makes my blood boil is that I was on the receiving end of actual sexual harassment from girls in high school when I was exploring my gender identity, and it was so bad that I stopped presenting any sort of femininity- I now have to live with a face that I can't stand to look at in the mirror. I did nothing but mind my own business and she thought she was doing some kind of good by calling me out. This one incident probably ruined any chance of me making any friends at school, especially when there's the possibility that someone recorded this on their phone. I'm lonely enough as it is. I don't know what compelled her to say that. Half the times in my life women want to abuse me, and the other half I get treated like an abuser. No non-Gen Z woman has ever treated me like this, and I have a feeling it has something to do with how gender relations are so warped by social media. I'll admit that there's one girl in my life who were willing to actually understand who I am, and I pay my gratitude for that kindness by looking out for her. I'd sooner open a vein than mistreat her- and that goes for all women who've shown me kindness. I just get bunched in with the men who aren't good, as if there's anything I can do about how other men behave. I feel like the kind of situation I'm in is how incels are created, except that I'm just a little too smart to fall into that. What saddens me and makes me sick to my stomach is that I might be treated like one for the rest of college no matter how much I try to break the mould.
@NominalVariance45321
I'm truly sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. It's important to remember that you deserve understanding, kindness, and support. If you're comfortable, consider talking to a mental health professional or counselor who can provide guidance and help you navigate these complex emotions. Building a support system, whether through friends, family, or support groups, can make a significant difference. Remember that your worth is not determined by the actions of others, and seeking help is a courageous step towards healing and finding peace within yourself.