Am I a bad person

Am I a bad person?

Hi. 

So basically I started a relationship with a guy I met online around 3 months ago. (Me F23 and him M33) he lives around 3 hours from me. 

Basically everything went quite fast and intense and we felt like we’d known each other forever. We used to have discussions and disagreements but nothing too serious and it was always resolved within a few hours.

We then started to argue more about stupid things like social media and stuff. Fast forward to around 2 and a half weeks ago, we started to argue pretty bad. Many insults were thrown at each other and I used something personal that I shouldn’t have brought up against him. 

He said he’d never be able to forgive me. Anyway, I went to visit family and told him to cool off and we’ll see each other when I’m back. We both cooled off after 3 days and started talking normally again. Till the night before I flew home where I reacted to a silly comment he made and he responded worse to my reaction. 

He proceeded to block me and delete me off everything. The day after he unblocked me to tell me that it was over and I reacted badly saying that if he left me I would go to where he lived and basically threatened him with empty threats like ‘you’ll see’ etc. I understand that it’s bad what I did but he took it so badly and got pretty hurt. 

I felt awful after and tried to right my wrongs but he was having none of it. I went to his town to see him on public transport but he didn’t want to see me saying that I disgusted him and left me at the station alone on the night, offering to book me a hotel. 

 I returned home the next day and felt awful. We stayed in contact talking little by little with me trying to convince him and beg him that I didn’t mean what I said and to reconsider us. 

I understand that 3 months is little time to have these problems but we felt a mad connection straight away and it just felt right.

I went to the doctors because I noticed that always before my period, I get this way where I cant control what i say and I say hurtful things in arguments and it turns out I have a hormone imbalance and extreme PMS. I explained this to him but he thinks it’s an excuse for what I’ve done. 

Anyway, he has now officially left me and he said he doesn’t love me anymore, and has accused me of mistreating him and psychologically manipulating him. I feel so upset and disgusted with myself and I just want him back so I can show him that I didn’t mean what happened and i just want to go back to how it was. I really felt like he was the one. 

Do you think there’s still a chance there?