Am I over reacting?
So my boyfriend freely told me he still watches p*rn, I had mixed feeling about this, like am I not good enough? Or is he just with me to fulfill his s*xual desires? I've also realized that he always talks about my body, and how he'd like to do explicit things. Then again I do want it, yet sometimes I feel like that's the only reason he wants me. Am I weird for feeling like this?
@NamelessKing
I believe it's not you who is the source of the problem, but it might be the matter of your boyfriend's possible addiction to pornography.
Intimacy is nothing wrong. But transfering pornographic idealisations to your relationship - which, I think, should be based not only on physical attraction, but also on emotional intimacy, responsibility, mutual respect and understanding - might be harmful, and make you feel like an object, not a person.
Actually, you have mentioned various aspects of your relationship in your previous message. I believe it's how the relationships are working: We constantly learn about new things, we are starting to know our partner better, but also gain some new insight about ourselves. And it's not about our relationships having to be "sterile perfect", but about them feeling "just right", resulting in more self-awareness and self-growth, non-abusive and non-toxic.
