Annoyed

Some days aren’t always no sunshine and rainbows…

Yeah I have anxiety, depression, bipolar, ptsd, and other mental issues that have collected along the way with mean people!!! How am I suppose to get better when all I’ve been doing is drinking, smoking weed, vaping and drinking caffeine and whatever junk food I placed in my body…I now got the help for my anxiety give me a break. Understand I am healing. It really is about me… you know why cause if I’m acting a certain way people get upset… if I don’t help myself my attitude, frustration, anxiety won’t ever change. People are just stupid. I said it and I don’t care because that’s all they think about. I never ask anyone to do anything except be a normal person and sit next to me while I deal with the demons I deal with ever damn day and that’s just too much to ask. I’ve bent over backwards for people and I still get treated like *** and it doesn’t matter who because it’s pretty much everyone. If I want to sit in silence let me. If I want to do self care for myself… let me because I am trying to heal and not complain or be a burden and you know what’s stupid is that people won’t tell you that you aren’t a burden they’ll just complain about how they aren’t being seen or getting help or taking on too much or you only focused on your issues. 🙄 I’m know duh.. I’m sorry… I needed to vent cause I don’t want to vent on fb, *** or anywhere else. People have no idea what they want and it’s frustrating for people like us to take on those issues. I mean like if your going through that then find a solution. I’m reaching out to my resources doesn’t that show you maybe you should too. 🤦🏻‍♀️ Stop playing dumb.

Also to mention on top of all of my mental health issues. I now have sciatica that came out of know where. I got my period so now I have to wait another damn week to take my drug test for a new job but I am just trying to take everything with my health one step at a time. I mean I rather have gotten injured now than on the job right when I have started. Just taking some of the issues I deal with as a positive. I am just really fed up with people and how they have treated me. It’s overwhelming and exhausting.

I posted this on another platform but I’m just irritated still 🤦🏻‍♀️