A really long confession

My love I lost...My obsession...My biggest mistake...I love you but I made a huge mistake and I know it... Everything that happens on the court is good for me, win, lose...I am not nearly good enough for you and I know it! Now the trial...I know nothing of you or your path but you are an inspiration for me. You have nothing but pain and I have nothing but happiness. I am weak. Luck is with me, fighting mentality with you. Maybe because you had nothing but suffering you are this strong, o Lucifer. You aren't cast out of Heaven, you just left. I know nothing about you. It will stay this way. Thank you for being an inspiration. My sorry means nothing now.

Now another point of view.

I see you as a provider for your ex, maybe a cheater, definitely a liar. The facts stated above are your words to me made my own because I love you.What am I sorry for, for real?You dumped me because I am on meds again. Not to mention all the money you took from me. I am in debt because of you.

Pure facts. You did a tatoo together with her, borrowed MY money to her, we ended up all in a threesome like immature ***, We are all adults for God's sake!

I am left with humiliation, debt and emptiness. I hope he ends up in jail and pays off a part of my debts in damages.