Break up

Hello everyone I hope everyone is doing well. So I got out of my 3 years 1 month relationship yesterday. I am a girl, and I was in relationship with a muslim girl. I know it's haram but somewhat it's complicated. I really need help. Our relationship was healthy, her parents are abusive so are mine. We planned to work on ourselves, get a job and get out and live together. But something happened inbetween idk, she said she will be back in an hr. In an hr she said she don't wanna be gay, she feels it's wrong. Her grandma said her that she wanna see my gf being in a higher rank get a job, and somewhat that affected her. She told her mum about us, she had no emotions in her eyes when we called last night, she just said she fell out of love. She feels wrong about our relationship. But you won't believe, she wrote a huge huge love paragraph to me the exact day we broke up. I can't believe how can a person change in hour. Although I have this strong really strong feeling that someday she will miss me, she will think it was a wrong step. It might take years, or months. But mine feeling of these are strong. I really need help 🙏🏽.. I left all my friends cuz of her. Now I have no one in my life. It's pretty lonely. I have no one to talk about all these so I'm seeking help.. if manifesting is needed, I'm down for that. Just help me.. I feel like I'm bout to give up on my life. I really need someone by my side.