Break up

It has been over a year, and I am still emotionally affected by a situation with him yes he is 37 and I was 22 y . We were intimate, and although we did not have full intercourse, it was still a sexual experience that meant a lot to me. After I left his place, I told him clearly that I wanted something serious and that, for personal and cultural reasons, I could not continue sleeping together unless there was marriage. I explained this in a long message about my values and what I wanted. He responded very coldly, avoided the conversation about commitment or promises, and then disappeared completely. Since then, he has not contacted me at all. This experience left me feeling rejected, confused, and stuck emotionally, and I am struggling to move on or understand why it affected me so deeply.

I’m really tired of thinking about him as well after that few month and only when I travel if a man want me I directly agree and sleeping with them from first day it happened 4 times maybe and the last 1 from dating app he was treating me like .. and I pay for me he finish he gone