Crazy
I don’t know where to start. My husband and I have been together for 15 years. I’m 49. He is 51. My parents disapprove of him and have banned him from their house. We lost our house and me and our kids moved in with my parents and they weren’t happy about it. For five years we lived there. He lied to me during those five years he was hanging out with friends that he lied to me about and was using drugs. My parents my father is an alcoholic and and addict. Was sober the time we lived there but is currently falling in and out of drinking again. My husband and I got back together and things were good he promised never to see or speak to these people again. Things started deteriorating I found out he has been calling these people again. When I confronted him. My concern was drug use and the fact that these people called me up and said I basically was a bad mother and he didn’t love me. He said it had been so many years and he thought a phone call wasn’t a big deal. It is to me. I feel crazy and lost and confused. I know I approach things wrong. But I can’t leave I have no place to go with the kids. I’m old and lost and hurting so bad. My thoughts are jumbled and he is normal response is to get the f out of his face. And he doesn’t want to look at me. When I bring things up. I don’t know what’s wrong with me
@sunnyLime5799
Addicts all around. What about you?
Are you asking if I’m an addict? No I’m not an addict.
@sunnyLime5799
Sorry, not really, rather what you think all about it and how do you live in it? 15 years + 5 with your father could be hard life, not only what you described above.
I’m depressed for sure and lost.
@sunnyLime5799
First of all i wuold recommend tio break down your feelings in fron of anybody, a close human, a therapist, or may be even here on 7 cups. Random facts of your life say noyhing indeed without your deep thoghts, feelings, senses.
And 49 is not old ;) I am 47 and i am young, though i am here for some reasons too.
Thank you! The problem I have is my feelings are all over the place. I just lost my grandmother who was like a mother to me. My relationship with my parents is not good never has been. My dad was an addict and my mom focused on him all the time. So we don’t talk anymore. Whe I lived there my mom was always yelling and calling my husband names in front of the kids telling me I need to get the f out of her house and how do I get these people the f out of her house. I was married once before and he was abusive and left me. I know I have a huge abandonment issue. I don’t know how to pass that
@sunnyLime5799
Rirst of all, If you want to get out of all of that you should start. Even right now if you feel like. It will be a long difficult, sometimes seemingly unbearable path. It's not guaranteed, but will be rewarded.
@sunnyLime5799
I'm sorry you are dealing with such hardships in your life..
Please stay strong for the kids, it's obvious you are trying very hard.
I hope your husband isn't going back into drugs..
We are here to listen and support you..
Good luck🌟
Thank you I appreciate it
