Don't judge
So i want to be in a relationship but I just know if I try I will ruin other ones life top. My past depression anxiety and truma will make them suffer to that's why whenever someone approch me i distance myself but then I sometimes try to find someone but when I do i feel like I don't deserve this or more accurately they don't deserve what will they get from someone like me they will only get pain or suffering.
@tealPenny1345
Hey there, thanks so much for having the courage to make this post, I can tell that it can't have been easy to open up in this way. I'm so sorry to hear about your past trauma and mental illness. I can definitely relate to those feelings of not wanting to hurt someone else and assuming you're not good or whole enough to be in a loving relationship.
With the right person, it's definitely possible to build a loving and stable relationship in spite of past trauma or even current mental ill health, but I know how distant that might feel at the moment. I wonder if you've ever been able to express these feelings to someone in your life or a professional who might be able to help you unpick some of what's happened and help you rebuild?
Please keep talking and sharing, and if you feel it would be helpful, I'd really welcome a 1:1 chat with you.