Don't know what i should do.

Hi, thanks for taking the time reading.

Well i don't know where should i start with my history... So basically i been in a long distance relationship for about 2 years, we always did our best to meet at least 3 times per year and our relationship was working well, i forgot to say that I'm male 23 years old and she is 29 years old well said that basically we broke up 1 month ago but we lasted only a week without communicating each other (we used to chat, videocall, Play video games etc) so basically after a week i sent she a mail (since she blocked me on every social app) in this email i just told she how much i regret all the bad things i did to her and thanked she for all the things she did for me basically was a good bye letter, and a few minutes later she videocalled of course i answered and in this videocall she told me that i hurt her a lot and that she still loves me but she really doesn't know how to forgive me so she can't give me nothing but a friendship however somehow we still trying to fix our relationship but its been really hard for me she will act very cold some times and sometimes she will act really sweet and I'm trying to always be sweet with her but when she acts cold with me i feel like she doesn't want me anymore and when I'm about to give up she starts acting sweet again and really makes me feel like she really loves me and i say to myself she loves you, you have to keep fighting for her but isn't easy sometimes it looks like everything is going really well and sometimes looks like a waste of time and that I'm just prolonging my pain.

And well forgot to mention it at the start but the reason we broke up was because honestly i did a lot of bad things like manipulating she to avoid she visiting her family or hanging out with her friends i know that i did a lot of mistakes and she went to sleep crying a lot of times i can say that back then she was indeed in love with me and i was afraid of losing her so it was my way to keep her with me, i know that there's no justification for what i did and i already told she how much i regret hurting her.

I'm already going to visit a psychologist because honestly i want to change and be a better man not only for myself but with her.

But yeah basically everything looks like we're doing excellent and the other day looks like it's done.

Sorry for my English isn't my main language so sorry.