Have a hard choice to make

Have a little problem and don't know what to do

I'm officially from South Africa but Married to a Indian now for two years and also have a one year old baby born in India

I have been staying in India for almost 2 years now but have not yet find myself or fallen in love with the country I miss my hometown and soon I will be going for vacation to South Africa but I feel like I want to stay in my country and not return to India again but my problem is my child and husband his whole life is in India I don't want him to be unhappy like me if he come to my country and the little one is so close with his Indian family

I really don't know what decision to make so confused and feel depress because of this