I communicate through a translator., I'm sorry, I need help.

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and I have a Problem, I've been dating a man for almost 3 years (online relationship) since my early а years, Since the end of my twelfth birthday. And he had just turned 15 years old., I'm afraid to talk to which ones because I'm afraid that it will be clear who I am, even if it's impossible. to be honest, he seemed strange to me before. well, I want to tell you about what's happening now, starting in September 2025, from that moment the problems started, we started fighting more and more from that moment, in principle, it should have happened sometime, I understand, we're all different people, we grew up in different families and we there may be different opinions on one subject or another.

well, then, as time passed, I started to get very stressed out because of quarrels and conflicts, very much, because of stress, my immunity somehow decreases and I get sick more often, psychologically I feel terrible, depressed.

He always has double standards, he can easily insult me, and with phrases that I've never heard, it's very insulting.

then, I went to the disco with a friend, she really asked me, initially I didn't even want to go there. well, because he had already swayed me, I decided to tease him a little, as he did with me, so he didn't like it, and I didn't say that I would go to the school disco.

Well, I came back, he started to *** on me wildly for this, and because of this incident, he psychologically raped and tortured me for 8 hours without a break from evening to morning.

even at one point I said that I would make everyone a New Year's gift, since I love popularity and attention (and this is not so) so he said in a veiled way that he would upload my photos around my city,

well, I'm already so *** up that I've already started searching the Internet for articles for this, so I'm also underage, so this is a more violent article. it somehow didn't scare him, it even set him up, and now my heart is pounding wildly and he's like, oh, so let's play, and I quickly don't think about anything,

I delete the chat with him and block it, then it was about 5 a.m., closer to 6, I'm lying I think I'm going to tell my parents how to move on with this. and then a short amount of time passes and he writes to me in tt like, wait, let's talk, at least try, well, I didn't answer, even blocked his acc. an hour later, he tearfully begs me to forgive him for everything, says that he can't live without me, he will be my slave, and immediately calls me sweet words Me. Well, for some reason and for some reason I forgave him, he was eternally grateful for that. but then, closer to the new year, he began to disappear from the network,

it has been for 2 years that his Internet is supposedly bad, well, he says that something happened to him, we need to move away, and there it is clear that he does not want to communicate with me. 11 days have passed since the new year, he began to disappear even more often and for a longer time, wrote good morning in the morning, and then writes when it is already late in the evening. and it gets to me if I don't respond immediately or if I'm online while he's not online.

well, an important addition, he forbids me to leave after the 9th grade, supposedly I will *** and go to boys and clubs, but I really want to study and be more independent already.

I understand that it's better to leave Him right now, because it's going to get worse.. But I can't deceive my heart, but I know that my brain is already fully ready for parting, but not my heart. I understand that if not now, then there will be tougher rules and consequences later.

And yes, I am afraid of him at times, and I have suspicions that he has borderline personality disorder! I'm not a psychologist, of course, but by all accounts he fits this disorder.

I've been talking to a Google bot for a long time, but I understand that artificial intelligence is not able to communicate with me as a person, so I'm writing here in search of understanding. I think if you give me advice on parting, it will push my heart more towards parting. I would be grateful if someone would respond.