Idk just need to vent.

I’ve been with my current boyfriend since last year New Year’s Day and man it’s been a *** disaster and honestly I’m confused. I got pregnant about 3-4 months into the relationship. When I was 3 months pregnant I found out he cheated on me. He works over nights and when he was supposed to be off work he left early and went to some girls house he met at a gas station and went to her house took a shower and everything there. He said he took a poop and talked w her while he was on the toilet like he was just so comfortable.. oh and he had sex w her raw and lied about it. I had to inbox the girl pretending to be him to find that out and he lied for weeks. I didn’t find out he cheated till a few days before my bday: then on my bday he didn’t say happy birthday .. we argued because I need 85$ to secure a place for me him and my two kids ( not his ) and our kid we had on the way. I got called out my name . And some more. We finally got the apartment and when moving here we didn’t have help . I told him I could get my family to help he declined. When it was time to move I couldn’t carry to much because I was now about 4-5 months pregnant and he said my belly isn’t hurting that bad and told me to carry another box. I cried and he didn’t give a ***.. there’s so many situations I could bring up where he made me feel as if I didn’t matter. He sometimes makes it seem like we are a bother. Sometimes he cares sometimes he doesn’t. Sometimes he wakes up mad at all of us kids included. I use to try to understand why.. no reason explained. He gets mad and grabs arms to hard and claim it’s an accident. Every time we have a issue he can never admit when he’s wrong . It takes hours of conversation to get the *** truth or to get *** admitted.. when i use to complain about how I felt I got called a cry baby .. so I stoooed telling him how I feel. I no longer feel comfortable doing so.. I have depression.. I have anxiety and honestly he doesn’t help .. sometimes he is dependable sometimes not.. like idk. I love him but I’m tired yall. Sorry for all the typos but I needed to vent.. help