I hate my life
I’m a depressed miserable shallow incel with misogynistic views. I have extreme envy issues and I ruminate over rejections, slights, and my envy of men with the women I’m depressed over. I wish I wasn’t me. I want to change but I struggle changing. I envy others immensely, hate myself immensely
29 and a morbidly obese virgin but I’m extremely depressed attractive thin women don’t like me. I’m severely envious of the men who are with the women I’m miserable over. I can’t go to bars because I stare at couples happy while I sulk into my beer, I stay in my room playing Xbox when I’m not working instead of having a life. I don’t have any friends here where I live, they all live in my old home state, and I’m envious of them too because of their wives , I’m glad they’re happy but still sad my life isn’t theirs. I’m more than 100 lbs overweight, only 2/3 done with my bachelors, and still live with my parent. I am an envious loser with ambition but no drive because I feel that if I put in effort it’s almost certainly a failure because I’m unattractive looking. I’ve said terribly things about women who look like me, while complaining I’m not loved. I’m exhausted with myself, and feel like a lost cause every day. I just recently got a job in the field I want to be in and I’m not even doing a good job at it. I wish I could change but because of what I look like, and because I don’t have money, I feel hopeless. I pushed away a lot of people because of my mindset. Even with my therapist, I’m frustrated that he can’t help me with being more attractive to attractive women, and that’s not his job, so I know I’m in the wrong. It’s difficult for me to do it for me alone. I’m dreading my 30th birthday in a year because it’ll mean I’m a 30 year loser virgin who no one woman wants to date or have sex with because I’m unattractive. While also hating the men who are with the specific women I’m depressed over
@miserableman93 It can be tough to want help but end up pushing a lot of people away.
I've had questions that relate to some life circumstances that you posted. I'm open to talking about it if you want.
@miserableman93
U need to know that you are already a valuable and unique individual. Your worth cannot be measured by your appearance or your relationships with women. You have unique abilities and talents. Embrace who you are and focus on what makes you happy and comfortable. There may be aspects of your life that need improvement, and that's normal, but don't let it affect your self-image. Keep striving for self-improvement and remember that a person's true value is not determined by their romantic relationships. You deserve happiness and respect, and I'm sure you have the capacity to change and become even better for yourself and others.