It feels that im about to lose everyone i love

In the beginning of December it started, my sweet cat Lovely was in a huge pain, from one day to another. Been going to different vets since. Last Saturday it came back again. For the third time 😔 They cant seem to find out exactly whats wrong with her. In total we saw 6 different vets now. I feel that i will lose her. Its so hard to put her through vet visits all the time, seeing her not feeling well, in pain. Forcing her, giving medication. It breaks my heart, shes my little girl 😔

What am i going to do without her?

On this same moment we are waiting for the decision, if my boyfriend, who ran from the war in Yemen will get his residence permit in my country. Normally if you come from Yemen, you will get the residence permit here. Problem is.. He went through Greece and was forced to fingerprint there. Normally Greece then will be responsible, but my country said they cant just send people back there because of the bad situation. Still its not sure what will happen tho with the people who come from Greece. So theres still a chance that they will send him back, we are just not sure. We have a relationship since the beginning of 2018 and i know him since November 2017. Since then his life is standing still...

Five years.. Now it can take up till 2 months for the decision to come. A very stressful time. Him and Lovely are so important in my life. Im trying my best to stay strong. Well, i have to stay strong. For him. And for Lovely who needs all care.