Just crazy…

I won’t go into details, but.. If a guy says(after 3x asking to him if anything has changed) that there was romantic interest from the beginning, then I put a pause on seeing him (never did… we have different schedules… nights/morning.I never pushed him away, I showed care, support, flirting etc like did before… he was so sweet to me until not that affectionate.) and sees us as good friends.

In the phone conversation, he said more.. that he never really felt chemistry (before that he said that he felt and that he was happy)…. there were a lot of things said… in short, I asked him if there was any chance for me to date him? He said no, that there wasn't. What am I trying to achieve? Find someone better. To calm myself down, do not feel sad, relax. that being friends isn't bad. I said that I have feelings and it's not easy. He called a manipulating and asked if it’s better if he did just ghosting or I’m trying to make him a bad guy now, guilty… he would stayed with me and lied? I won't go into details. He told me many things. And rejected everything what has happened between us. He told me he is kissing on lips also his mamma and never called me his gf (he did) and don’t like me. After I was telling to him how bad day it is for me, that can’t eat… he replied with: i’m sorry to hear that… he replied to my messages but with a one sentence or a one neutral question (job question). So I can’t see him at job… too painful. I’m planning to leave it. It’s not the best job and exist the same job positions.

But the main question - if I texted him, we would meet maybe… would I be able to change his feelings?

P.s. I know he was looking for a one girl before (to me said no that she is making things up… actually he was). But after her rejection he started talking to me. And I know he was checking also other girls (most probably i was one his “try outs”). But idk. When I told to him what i feel and how bad this affects me (can’t sleep, eat and i think I ruined everything, did something wrong…)… and i think he the cutest and the best looking guy ever… i rarely like someone… so he blocked me at the end… told me it’s too much for me and him. Idk why he seems so perfect (looks) now and it hurts me a lot… i can’t sleep, eat and i barely took my shower… I don’t wanna go to job (i can see him tomorrow when it’s our shift change)…