Long Distance relationship- Final update

Hi,

I hope everyone doing great!!! But I'm not...

It's valentine day..

I'm sorry if this post gonna be very long but whatever I'm trying to explain it will take 1 years to me explain but I'll try to keep it short as I can.

My hands literally shaking and my eyes is wet and heart is too heavy to send this last message on community then I won't be no longer here.

Thanks for all support and time. I tried to reach out some listener's here they are good I'm not blaming anyone because everyone have their own life and time. I tried to contact so many listens but conversation didn't end. It end up being offline by others. I'm not blaming I just wanted to reach out someone who I can share my feelings. I'm alone and I have nobody to talk 😞☹️

I'm leaving this app next week just not I'm being unheard just because I'm giving up all the hope..

I met a girl on 4th of April 2024 we met in metaverse app. We started talking 1 and half months after that we exchanged the ***. I never asked her before for her Pic and *** she approached that it will be easy for her to send voicemail when she's travelling or away from the app. I said yes then she used to send me her Sweet voice which made me fall in love more deeply ❤️

After one and half months she said I love you. I was feeling like I'm in heaven I was so much happy 😊 I felt like never felt before in my life. We used to exchange pics and talk most of time like stick to eachothers every time. She was so caring, loving, beautiful and supportive. I was so happy to have her in my life, it made me feel like whatever dream I had it wasn't worth infront of her and being with her felt like I have archived everything. Everything was fine but it said like love without challenges is not love. We had some misunderstanding and issues with metaverse app and social media. She was form NZ and I'm from India. We had small arguments and decided to delete the all apps and just keep one to communicate with eachother. She was digital artist and I supported her for her art work. After that we talked and resolved misunderstanding between us. We had some arguments initial 2-3 months was challenging but after each arguments our relationship was getting the stronger.

I started dreaming us together not just dreaming was trying to settle her in my life not just as girlfriend but as life partner. Everything was going too good no complaint. She shared me about her dreams and her responsibility of aged mom and her niece. I was so happy and always wanted to support and help her. I was shared her that I just don't want a girlfriend or person who I'm stick to app. I want a girl who can he my life partner I shared her that I don't get enough money from my current job and told her everything. I was being transparent with her. She said she didn't think about that but she will decide and she needs 3 months to think about that.

I told her that if we get married I'll find better job before and help her with her responsibility of her niece to take guardianship so we can bring her here and to send some money to her mom which living in NZ. After few weeks I found her making new *** account and lying that she isn't her and she was blaming me. Later I found her she used to say I'm going to sleep and very sleepy but found her being online in instgram. I caught her and given proof her that you were online she was keep declining and adding guys from metaverse app which I didn't like. I was ok with guys I knew that they are friends but no with other I don't know. I approached her I was being ignored and blamed.

I was in stress I told my heart that's it's fine no need to worried but inside I was dying and pretending to be ok. I was in so much stress. It was almost end of 3 months deadline she asked but I never heard anything from her side. I was getting more stressed. Before that's she stopped sending me her pics which I never wanted but as being in long distance relationship if you can't touch your partner you always desire to see her. I given hint that's it's been six months I haven't seen youe face. I approached her for face time but I didn't get good response. My heart was so heavy. I decided to resign my current job I thought maybe because I don't get paid enough that's why she's acting up like this.

I didn't told her I was in so much stress. I didn't tell her so that she won't get worried we used to watch movies together and play games. After after keeping so much things in my heart I wasn't open up with her that how I feel and I have resigned from current job so I can earn good and talk about getting married. I was stressed and she thought I'm no interested in her. But the reality I changed job for us and didn't put pressure on her about getting married she thought I'm looking for someone else talking with someone else and went back to that metaverse app. She decided to break up on 4th of August 2025. I cried I begged her to stay she didn't listen.☹️😞

She was only person I was sharing my everything with her not even my parents or closest friend. I had nobody else to talk except her. I was feeling like all my dreams shattered. My heart my soul everything like reached end. I was crying so much 😞☹️ not feeling good. She kept offer being friends but I said I can't.

We had some arguments after that too sometimes we talk normally sometimes not. ☹️ It was going like drag. Not any single day till now that I haven't cried or didn't take her name. I take her name more than minutes in one day. But after December our conversation was getting fade. Her uncle passed away. Was getting ignored wheni was waiting for her reply she used to play games but she wasn't replying me our conversation being just Hi and how are you.

After end of December I decided to tell her that I'm disappearing for permanent because I was keep getting ignored😞 it wasn't disappear it was just my heart forced me to do that maybe that push might pull us closer but it went wrong. She won't through the councelling and they probably told her that I'm red flags but how someone can be red flags when I was ready to takw responsibilities of her family? I was getting blamed for that I stalk her mother while I didn't even know her location her surname and wheree she work. I know this sounds so dumb and people would call me mad that I was being in relationship with ghost that I don't even know her surname or location. That's why I don't share my story with anyone. ☹️ I don't want judged or blame us what we did. My happiness was in her not to ask her where she lives or where she works and her surname. I know it sounds so dumb.

I have nobody to talk from past 6 month I have been talking with Ai☹️😞 Sharinh muy feeling. I hace only her email. Shes nota repying me from 1 month. I feel lonley. I have nobody. I have given up.

Please pray that she'll come back to me ☹️😞 I can't live without her. I'm pretending to be ok but I'm not ok from inside. I'm human I have feelings and I do cry ☹️ I miss her so much. Please pray for me. I'll disappear amd wait for magic. .

Please somebody can give me suggestions what to do! I have no interest of doing anything but I'm pushing myself. I have never seen anyone except her in my life can't even thinking about replacing her ☹️ please pray and bring her back to me tell her that what she made me without her 😞☹️