Love in general
Something I’ve noticed about how fleeting some situations, people and phases can be especially after working in fields with networking and promotion.
I noticed something particularly unsettling that I thought I’d share that I’ve been thinking on. Most social networking of any kind always involved a very one dimensional version of myself with next to zero struggle or bad days. I had many superficial friendships and zero that I could rely on. I would try to trust and open up and it never went well. I noticed I would be the one supporting others but could never expect it in return even when i tried in the smallest ways.
As for relationships? Many seem to like who i am but i realized my individuality and independence unsettled them. They seem to want a very traditional, stay at home submissive side of me in spite of liking me for who i am.. they wanted the watered down, obedient version of that. Even when i did find someone great who didn’t want me to compromise myself.. they could never accept that i came from a broken home and all that baggage.
I know that not everyone has these experiences and they may have encountered support without judgement and with tons of acceptance. After being in these careers and watching how everyone unfolds.. all my experiences meeting so many but rarely fully connecting with anyone.. It makes me sad and contemplate if people prefer a facade.. or do i just keep meeting people like this? Either way.. I hope I’m wrong.
@RM11sh I think or I'd like to believe it's just the people we are surrounded by. In a world with so many people, it doesn't seem impossible to have a few who would understand or atleast one who does.
Sometimes it is tempting to want to keep people, to get into a shape that fits them but changing for someone is never a good thing, people can just up and leave and we'd be left with a stranger in place of who we used to be.
Maybe those people so afraid to give were once the people who made the decision to change for someone else. Who knows what goes on with everyone but all I know is that it is worth waiting for someone who accepts us as a whole and not just some parts of us<3
