Messed up

So me and him have been best friends for over 3 years and we always had that “gay talk” but it was always a joke, till last month where we started being friends with benefits, nothing 18+ mainly just kissing and sweet talking, but I kinda feel like I fugged up, we play Vr every weekend and when we were playing I got overwhelmed and upset over something small he did in the game, it was a pvp game so that should be a good explanation lol, and my mess up was that I’ve been ignoring him since for the past 4 days, the kicker is he used to have a female friend who trauma dumped all the time and we kind a just stopped hanging out with her because she’d guilt trip me and he took me away from that. But I have family issues, school problems and in general mental health stuff, so I’m trying to find a way to say sorry without blabbing and writing some long *** explanation because we haven’t been doing really sentimental stuff, and I miss him a lot but he’s said a few times offhandedly that he isn’t looking for a relationship, we planned on moving in together for college, but I can’t wait 3 years for that.

don’t feel obligated to respond, I just had to get that out somehow