Missing my person

He was everything I ever wanted,talking daily for year and half,even I thought it was wrong because he had a wife,I fell in love with this man so quickly. Sometimes I realized it was wrong,and walked away but always came back for more,blocking him many times,he was kind every time I came back to him,but this last time he is so distant,I know he wanna do what’s right too,but I fear he is starting to forget me and move on,I feel so alone and depressed 💔