My first break up

My gf broke up with me 2 days ago. We both had issues at really didn't understand eachother at times. So we both agree it was for the best. And we're planning on being friends now. But at times It still doesn't feel real to me. I know it my head we broke up but when I think of her I find myself calling her my gf in my mind and have to remind myself we broke up. Sometimes I feel numb as well like I already moved on. But other times I just cry because I still love her and i find myselfhopingwe get back together, even if its not somethingi think i want. Being firends is also something I'm adjusting to. I had issues where I wanted alot of her attention and was clingy, so it feels weird knowing that from now on she won't be a main focus of my life. Idk if these emotions are normal since it's my first relationship and first break up ever.