Need Advice

Hi.. I'm feeling really emotionally drained and completely stuck and I really need some outside perspective on my situation (i would really appreciate it if anyone gives their advice)

There is a guy I care about deeply I've met him through online means nd In the past he told me that he loved me and we have been physically intimate (***) But recently things have become incredibly confusing He told me he doesn't want to commit and when he questioned a "yes or no" answer about whether I view him as my boyfriend I tried to honestly describe the romantic energy between us by saying we felt "more like lovers."

His response completely crushed me He said "Who said that I love u?"

When I asked him a hypothetical question about how he would describe me to someone else he told me that situation would never come up nd would describe me as a close friend *** tonight we confirmed that we are Friends with Benefits..also of course he will expect that i will be there for him (which is true), gets upset or doesn't like it when I go quiet, and wants my physical comfort and affection when it suits him...

I know this situation is a bit unfair to me...It's making me feel small and completely exhausted But the hardest part is that I love him so much genuinely so much..and right now, I feel like I'm going to stay because of those feelings, even though I know I can't truly "have" him..(cuz he can't commit nd he says that committing comes with a cost)