Need help on the situation with my ex.

I was previously in a 3 month relationship with a girl and things were near perfect it's not my first time getting heart broken but I feel like this was the first girl I properly loved her entire family came to really like me and as you can imagine I felt amazing however after the break up she didn't want to remove socials and it's become harder and harder recently to move on due to having her on my main messaging app and her constantly checking up on me which only hurt more and more the reason she left was due to me having poor mental health and our attachment styles clashed I was holding onto hope for a future but I'm pretty much done hoping by now and just want to move on but we had a conversation last night and she kept saying no please don't and was making me feel very very guilty I don't know what to do an out of panic I actually wrote her mother a paragraph about the situation and what I'm thinking her mother seemed receptive, open and actually agreed that I should do what's best for me and we had a conversation where she asked that we maybe try no contact for 2 weeks than see how I feel however this has only made me feel more and more trapped and lost, I feel as though as a person I've corrupted my feelings in a way where I move on so far from a person it's surprising for others and almost disrespectful due to the mental abuse I have endured in previous relationships, friendships and on rare occasions family settings, its not even been a month and I feel as though the moment I lost 80% of my hope it turned into a longing for independence and frankly nothing to do with relationships due me having 3 in the past 12 months and every last one of then being mentally draining along with me finding out around a month ago that my negative thoughts and terrible mood was actually due to a depressive disorder which I had no Idea about, I'm getting better and I can feel it already and I understand that life is not a linear line but being kind to myself is tough and if anyone can maybe take time out of their day to read this and maybe give a positive opinion I would be eternally grateful because right now I feel trapped, stuck and unable to think clearly for myself