New Baby, New Problems

I went through a rough pregnancy and the first few months of our baby's life were difficult due to my recovery and baby's health issues. My spouse acts like all of that was hardest on him and is constantly complaining. He also acts like all the health issues are my fault somehow.

These are the happiest days of my life and it feels like he is just *** the joy out of everything. He ells me I don't contribute anything even though I'm working full time so he can be a stay at home dad. I also work from home so I can breastfeed. That means he gets several long breaks during the day and I do all the baby care after work and on weekends.

We've been together ten years and always said we wanted three kids. Now he's saying he might be done having more kids bc of how hard having a baby has been for him. I can't understand how I was the one nauseated and pregnant but somehow it was hard on him?

I'm starting to really hate him and I don't know how to repair our relationship. I'm the child of divorced parents and really don't want to share custody but he's actively making life miserable when it would be joyful. Like I'll wake up happy and excited to see my baby and then spouse will find something to criticize me for and tank my sunshine. I'm trying to find a space to vent because we have all the same friends and I can't talk to family. I went through individual therapy but he'll never go to couples therapy with me. I'm so flipping angry.