Relationship stress

Hi,

M29 here.

Going through so much in my life. I was in long distance relationship with a girl. I always afraid to express it in public that most of people make a fun of it. It's been 6 months of break from 1.5 years of relationship. I know this sounds short but what we made in 1.5 years that feel like we knowing eachother for decades. I have some future goals. I had only girl I shared my every single thing to her she was always there for me to listen. She is not here with me. My heart is in pain I need somebody who respect the boundaries and conversation.

It's been tough timing. I'm trying to heal but I don't want to move on. I had only her to share things. Even I never shared things with my parents and my closest friends. I need somebody so we can exchange feelings and advice.