Sharing my story x

Hey 👋🏻

First time posting here. Not really sure what to expect. I just needed to vent about my situation a little and this seemed like a safe space 😅

Bit of backstory - My boyfriend of 6 years recently cheated. We are still together and I quickly forgave his infidelity towards me. He confessed and came clean about his cheating which was huge for me.

He got physical with a work colleague, but it didn’t go anything further than a kiss after he thankfully stopped himself. I felt betrayed and horrified his mind even went there to begin with. But him stopping was a big thing for me. 🥲

I thought I was over it, but it knocked back my confidence and self-esteem more than I realised. I found myself flirting with other men who were taking an interest in me. Which has never happened before. I told my boyfriend as it began to worry me. He blamed himself for it and told me it was a defensive coping mechanism. It was never treated as seriously as it should have been now looking back.

One of the next times I found myself in that situation, along with some alcohol, I lost control and cheated on my boyfriend as well. I don’t want to get into details here. But things escalated a lot further with my own infidelity 🙁

Its just made me feel gross, and absolutely awful for hurting my boyfriend in a more severe way than he hurt me to begin with.

Like him, I confessed, and our relationship is currently on a ‘break’. I’m not sure what is going to happen to us. Because we are both broken right now. 💔

Thanks for reading. Please get in touch if you want to help x