What should I do?

im 19 and I live with my 18 yr old boyfriend and his parents 2 months after he asked me out and yea it’s way to fast for me to move in but he was very sweet and I fell in love with him quick but now I live an hour away from my parents.. everything was good until my best friend had called me and asked if I was down to drink with her and my cousin but she didn’t want my bf to hear her so he thought that was very weird and doesn’t trust me with her now I lost my 12yr friendship with her because he made me pick between him or her and ofc I didn’t want to lose neither but i couldn’t just leave him

he has very bad angry issues so when he gets mad he never hits me but he holds me down and it hurt but if I yell at him to get off he covers my mouth tight again it hurt and later on when he calms down he just holds me and acts all sweet nd loving but tells me that it’s my fault we argue and that if we want our relationship to work I have to change.. he calls me bipolar a lot and I get it yea there’s times I get mad at the little things but most of the times he makes me mad and acts like the victim.. I love him so I feel bad but I don’t always start

theres times I’m scared he will turn physically violent over time but maybe that’s just me overthinking but its just the way he doesn’t respect me, my family either for some reason he always has something bad to say about them especially physically when I don’t even talk bad about his family because they are very sweet and my parents are respectful towards my bf too so I just don’t know why he is like that but then again he doesn’t even respect his parents.. when he is yelling at me or hits me playing around his parents defend me and tells him to not be like that but he yells at them to so they don’t really do much about it I even think they are a bit scared of him I’m not sure tho

he is the jealous type so if I do something to “get attention” he gets mad at me and says I’m being a *** even if I’m recording his dog and my thighs show he will delete the app

everything I said sound bad and I even think if it’s worth staying, worth losing my best friend I grew up with, not seeing my family only once a month, getting blamed on and the argument it’s just way to much but at the same time he is very sweet to me, when he makes me cry he knows how to make me laugh and help me stop crying, if I want to go somewhere he’ll take me, if I want something he’ll get it for me, we just have lots of good memories and I love to be with him but it’s just the bad parts that I don’t like

i do talk to him about how I feel but he says what about him, how he works a lot so that I don’t have to work, how he stoped talking to his friends for me, how he comes home tired from work and I aggravate him but yet he’s patient with be so we can be good.

i just don’t know what to do at this point