help

I’ve been feeling really anxious, sad, and overthinking a lot about my relationship with my boyfriend. I notice small thing like when he takes a long time to reply, gives one-word answers, or is active on social media and it makes me feel unloved and insecure. I want proof that he cares, and when I test him or wait for him to reach out first, I often feel disappointed, which just makes my anxiety worse.

I know he still loves me and tries in his own way, but I feel hurt when I don’t get the attention or affection I need. I struggle to manage my emotions, especially in the mornings or when I’m stressed, and it makes it hard to focus on school, holidays, or other things.

I really want a stable, secure, and loving relationship, but I feel exhausted trying to balance my strong emotional needs with his personality and communication style. I wish I could feel more mentally stable and secure in us without spiraling so much but i dont know where to start or how to do it

i seriously dont wanna break uo with him cause i love him so much but its so exhausting being this way towards myself