it's hard moving on

she left me without a word blocking me everywhere after we had a normal day together, i wonder if she cared about me as much as i did with her. i wonder if i was that draining to her, i wonder if she even cares about everything we went through, was i even your best friend?? why were your words so empty like your soul dies everytime you speak with me?? i did nothing wrong all i try to do is prevent you from leaving me by always being appreciative and sending gifts and messaging randomly but it's as if i were just someone who passed you by on the sidewalk when you were everything to me.. why can't i live normally?? why can't i hold friendships?? i just want a friend