relationship

i’ve been really worried recently because today my boyfriend attempted to break up with me however, without him i’m not sure how long i can live or how long i can stay clean for. he has not broken fully up with me yet but when i ask him can we work it out or try again he says he doesn’t know and ive suggested a break but he said no to that aswell. i am constantly worrying about since i dont know what im going to do without him and his family since i love them all so much and they have all made me feel so loved for the first time in years.