How to know whats going on
5 weeks ago me and my gf broke up, she wasn't in the right place for a relationship and weve had a few problems over the 7 months we was together with her getting use to a fully commit relationship, she was madly in love with me she said and wanted to be with me but it didn't feel like it would work so she ended it. But we was close friends before we got together and then become best friends over our relationship we found it hard to not talk to each other or hang out with each because we really love each others company more then any others we know. She made it clear we was just going to be friends but I still wanted more. She's started to get out of a dark place she was in and got drunk one night and asked me round she wanted kisses I told her no we will have to wait until she is sobar to make sure she really wants it but she didn't give up and my will wasnt strong enough to not want to kiss her so we become intimate. The next day I went to see her again and we was the same again.....sober this time, she wanted to see me again to hang out and do stuff intimate again, she also started talking about when I meet her family and how she would love to go the beach with me when we are off work together which we always planned when we was in our relationship. I then said something to do with me wanting to do something with her every day and she told me to shut up in a joking way but I could tell she didn't want to talk serious like that, im trying to live in the moment, day by day and see what happens. Is this the best way to go about this? I'm thinking if I push about what we are it might push her away and she might get scared so things will fall apart again? We are talking on the phone constantly when we're not together like today we spoke for 2 hours in the morning, an hour at mid day, and hour in the afternoon and then I worked all night so couldn't really speak, so I feel like she wants to spend alot of her time with me