Open marriage

I posted this in another group, but I didn’t realize there was a relationship space group, so this is more appropriate for this section. Me and my husband have been together for eight years, married to. For the last four years he has been working out of town, which has been recently hard on our sexual relationship, and our marriage. I have come to the point to where I am so used to being alone that I have no type of sex drive. He on the other hand still does and wants to be nasty over the phone but I just can’t. I’ve gone to many doctors, and they all told me that it could be related to stress. I’ve been on medication but it seems like nothing is helping.

about eight months ago me and my husband talked about possibly having an open marriage. He believes that maybe if I had sexual relations with another man, it would bring our relationship closer and me wanting to do more things with him when he comes home. At first I was OK with it, so I started looking on Tinder for different men in my area that would be willing to do this with our open marriage situation. I found a couple, but meeting up with them never seem to work out.

recently I have been really getting frustrated with the situation and I’m not sure if I want to do this anymore. My husband has already made the comment that if this doesn’t happen he doesn’t know how long our marriage will last after this. It is something that he is very passionate about and wants to see happen. He thinks itll reconnect us. I don’t know how to tell him that I’m just unsure about the situation. I don’t wanna lose him because he is my best friend, and I don’t want to get a divorce at this young age.