Relationship jealously
I've been with my boyfriend now for 2 years, it was a long distance at first, I moved in with him within 6 months of being together, before I moved in with him we would see each other once every month due to me working full time. So when I wasn't there he would watch porn which I didn't mind. Now I live with him, I find it disrespectful that he watches when I'm here. I caught him 6 months ago in the bathroom watching it and having a wank. I told him how it made me feel (worthless) and he said he would stop and only do it when I'm not in the house, well today he was doing it again in the bathroom. But he doesn't know that I know.
In the past it has caused many arguments because I haven't got much confidence and I put myself down, we argue about it. He deleted Instagram because of my jealously as he jus used to have models on there and just stare at them for ages. He holds that against me all the time. I can't help that I'm jealous I just wish he looked at me like that, any tips on how to handle my jealously or also to help me get over the feeling I get when I know he's watching porn.
@quickwittedBalsam1404
Your feelings are valid.
It sounds like his habits have become an issue and cause for repeated arguments. You have already explained to him that it makes you feel worthless and yet, he continues to make you unhappy.
You've tried making allowances for him to continue it in your absence but that hasn't solved how it's making you feel. It is likely to be a difficult discussion but I hope you are able to talk to him about it and agree a way forward which will stop the constant hurt.
Much strength to you <3