self centered

I am a bit sad today because my mind is wandering while I'm watching the What's Wrong with Secretary Kim. I kept thinking about the relationship we had with my partner. I feel sometimes that something is wrong with our relationship and I kept ignoring it for a long time now. I don't know if I'm just overthinking everything. I sometimes think that ours is not healthy because he kept saying that I'm a self-centered person. And honestly, I got hurt really even though ir is true. I got hurt because he is also had a toxic trait. It's not always me. i think he didn't notice the small things that I've done to him. I usually give him gifts before but he didn't appreciate it because it's cgeap. He seldom used my gift that I give to him. And also, I serve him and check him always if how's he doing but I think that he didn't recognize it. I feel useless because of what he said to me. I know it's the simple things that hurts me the most. Because of this, I made to stand on what he said to me that I'm self-centered. I sometimes want to be alone. I indulge myself because I'm thinking also that if I'm not enjoying today while I was still a maiden, when? Yeah, I'm being rebellious to him. Sometimes I think of letting him the one who would break up and I find it okay to me because all I want is freedom to do the things that I want. But of course, I'm trying not to be self-centered that much. I try to think of him always by checking up on him. I try to care for him and also with the people around me through simple acts of kindness. I know its hard to do something new but I try my best not to be defined as self=centered person.