I've had a couple of fetishes for a while now.
When I was about 12-13, puberty hit me like a speeding train. I started looking up pictures of naked women. This was back when YouTube wasn't as restrictive on content that you could post, so I found a bunch of stuff. Dad caught me once, but it was in good humor.
But honestly, I found out how to masturbate on accident when I was about 8, I think. Different subject, and I was completely ignorant of what it was at the time.
Fast forward to 14. While on YouTube, I stumbled across the ABDL fetish. I had no idea what it was at first, but enjoyed the videos. Then I started getting into Omo, pee stuff, some hentai mixes in there •_•. For whatever reason, it turned me on. Almost like an "innocence despoiled" effect.
There is a part of me thats still ashamed to admit it, even though I would promise myself I would let it go. I feel like I'll never meet someone who would be accepting of it, so maybe I should just dump it. I'm wondering if it's why I've been alone for so long.
@Nick8876
hey there. oh wow, that seems tough! i've never dealt with fetishes, so i'm sorry that i can't help much, but here are some links that (hopefully) will -- one, two, three, four, and five. best of luck, and i hope you've been having a good day!
@windflowers
Thanks. I appreciate it.
I'm beginning to think that it's really just a lack of acceptance of myself. Or at least acknowledging that I'm attracted to that sort of thing. And the frequency of which I masturbate. But I'm just spit balling. It could be anything.
Theres nothing wrong with being into ADBL and it seems pee fetish is even more common, as long as it doesn't hurt anyone, go for it, I'm sure you would enjoy it with someone with the same fetish as you.
You should certainly not be ashamed of it.
@Ladypearl hi I've never said this out loud but I'm totally taking over by attractive girls in panties and the smooth front it drives me wild . as a girl in her 20s this is strange but when I'm looking at girls i poo my pants when I'm horny
@Nick8876
I stumbled onto your post by accident today. I am glad that I did!
There is nothing wrong with what you are experiencing. Everyone has something that turns them on, society just likes to put labels on some of them.
I wanted to tell you a little about me. I am an 18 year old girl and have been a listener here for over 2 years. I work closely with teens and adults who are struggling with sexual problems or fetishes. If you would like to connect with me to talk about this more in detail, please feel free to! I look forward to talking to you! 
@Nick8876
Have you considered seeking out other folks in the ABDL community, either online or near you? It might be a way to find some like-minded people who would understand and validate your fetish? I think the support of community can be so helpful. One site I'd recommend is Fetlife, which is a social media site for folks in the BDSM/kink community. I know there are a lot of ABDL groups on there and you may even find a local group to meet up with.
@SuzyQ37
Thanks for the suggestion. I may look into it. I actually enjoy now much more than I used to, after coming to terms with it and just being myself.