My strange condition

Hello .
I am a male who has an abnormal sexuality and I wonder what you think about it.
The first thing that I had was foot fethishism. I remember that I was a foot fethishist when I was 6 years old.Afterwards , I started to want to be trampled by opposite sex, females.I also enjoyed the time while I was watching a female while she was crushing an inanimate object. However, I have never watched animal crush videos .Could my desire to be trampled by females caused by that
I was trampled by one of my relatives , who is a male ? Afterwards , I felt sexual desire to be whipped and towards feeling pain too. I have burned by feet I enjoyed it when I was 9 or 10 years old.I don't know why exactly but my sexual desire to feel psychical pain did not las long and somehow disappeared.Only hypothesis that I have about it is that I was beaten up by a boy when I was an adolescent .
Several years ago , I started to be interested in whipping videos and other kinds of abnormal sexual activities such as drinking spit of a female . However, my desire to feel pain is not as much as past now.
Another important point is that I have never wanted to practice normal sexual activity with a female and I can not combine eroticism and romanticism which means I don't want to practice my abnormal sexual fantasies with the female that I love which causes some problems.
I am still a foot fetish and crush fetish.

In conclusion I wonder what you think about my strange condition ?