Torn apart.

New to 7cups but I'm hoping this will help me express the feelings and emotions I'm going thru right now since I don't have anyone to turn to. I started a new job in January and everything was going great. I met some pretty nice people and I came across this guy who happened to be one of the managers there. We slowly started talking more and more each day. He would always tell me I'm beautiful and was always really helpful. We started to hang out more and more then a few months later I made the mistake of sleeping with him. I told him to buy the condoms Bc after all contracting an std is my biggest fear in life. He told me he had got some. So one thing lead to another and we noticed that the condoms were starting to dry things up a bit down there. He told me we should just try it without it. I told him no.l repeatedly then He asked me what I was scared about And I didn't want to offend him in any way by saying "I don't want to catch anything" so I simply said "I don't want to get pregnant" he said I had nothing to worry about Bc he will "pull out" But i was still hesitant. After a while he managed to convince me.... A few days later I experienced a burning sensation down there that was unbearable. I figured it may be a yeast infection so I ran to Walgreens and got monistat. First box didn't work so I bought another and another. Finally I went to urgent care. Doctor took a look down there and said "there's an ulcer right here which may be herpes". My heart sunk to my chest.