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All the things you took.

User Profile: Cutifly
Cutifly November 11th, 2019

You took away an anime convention. My favorite weekend of the year. You ruined it with our memories. You ruined it by using it to bring us together. You took it away from me.

You took away my sister. By getting her on your side and not giving her a chance to hear me. I don't think we'll ever be close. You spoiled her view of me with lies and forgottten details. You took it away from me.

You took away my home. You tainted it with memories. You even tried to kick me out. You took it away from me.

You took away my dog. Even though I still have her and she still loves me, she's still the dog we picked together. I can't look at her without thinking of you. You took it away from me.

You took away my happiness. And this is something I know I will get back, but you took it for now and it hurts. I am sad. I am empty. You took it away from me.

You took away so many things. And you don't even mind. All you did was gain. You gained so much from me at my own loss. You took away my prior relationship for the promise of greatness and love. But now I have nothing.

I still care so much about you, I don't know how to move on. I know we're trying to be friends because this is what you wanted. I know I agreed we would still be roommates, seperate rooms and all that jazz. Rent is high, I can't move out. I also don't know how to be alone. But in doing this you are taking so much more. You're taking my opportunity to move on. You're taking my opportunity to heal. You're taking my world and breaking it apart.

I wish I were stronger. I wish I could do more. But even through all of this I still let you take. And part of me is wishing you keep taking and taking and taking until you take me back.

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User Profile: CrowSpectre
CrowSpectre June 10th, 2020

@Cutifly

A seed, it only grows when it gets buried under the ground. It is a fairly common anecdote that people give for support and courage. But do you know about plants, miss. There are plants that give fruit or vegetable under the ground and there are plants that give the same, above the ground. The plants that are grown for their roots, meaning for their produce below ground, have bitter shoots which is the part that is above ground. And the plant that has bitter roots, has sweet shoots. Roots apply for past, or the inside, that is hidden and below ground. And shoots refer to the present or the outside, that the eye can see. During harvest, a plant that is grown for roots, is uprooted and taken out from the ground while the roots are cut away and the produce is gathered. While a plant that is grown for shoot, is sometimes picked or sometimes cut down, but it is never uprooted and it stays there, always. It grows again and gives its fruit for another season, while root plant is replanted from new roots again and then uprooted next season again and again. You are a shoot plant, miss. You have bitter past and inside but you are sweet and God has gifted you with many generous gifts to help others and give, that is the reason for your sacrifices. You have had bitter experiences but you selected to learn from them.

Do you know that when plants and forests stand in peacefulness then sometimes a storm comes and destroys the forests or fields. Sometimes predator insects attack fields and everything is destroyed and there is no hoppe left. But look closely, miss, there is so much life out of this improper destruction. The insects carry the pollen with them, even the predators, and then cause the plants to grow in other places as well, where there were no such plants. Exotic plants are sometimes carried by storms over oceans, their pollen is carried by the strong wind currents and they land in distant continents and are directly responsible for exotic vegetation there. There is even life in this chaos, miss, and if God can carry these miniscule pollens over oceans safely and land them in new places and help them grow a new heaven there, then have faith that God will not leave you alone. We humans, with all our talks and ego and pride, are still nothing. We talk and work so much to do this and that, to earn food, clothes and a shelter. We always worry so much about these things and think that it is our duty and responsibility to do that. But it really is not in our hands, miss, it is God

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User Profile: affectionateChestnut7351
affectionateChestnut7351 June 28th, 2020

@CrowSpectre

Beautifully written. Thank you.

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