Am I wrong?? Help.

My privates are sore & I think it’s because we went at it like animals 😂 The past few days I haven’t done anything other than wait for it to heal and only comes at random times a little bit, I’m going to see my GP just in case. I read some articles and after taking paracetamol and going for a bath for the past few days. Now I’ve decided ahem *playing with myself* might give some relief. My partner said not to and is frustrated that I want to do that as he says it could hurt me more if it’s an infection, which I understand hence seeing the GP but I still want to do it as I think it will give me some relief until I go and I don’t think it’s an infection as it’s coming very randomly. Anyway I feel he got way too upset? He was definitely angry and shouted a bit, he insists I don’t listen to rationale.

I did want to do it anyway which I understand is frustrating if your logic makes more sense to you but it’s my body and I can feel what works too as we don’t know what it is yet. from my perspective it’s only because I’ve waited a few days after him originally saying not to do that and I just want to see if it helps or not. I feel sometimes that if I don’t do things in the way he says is correct he gets frustrated easily…

I came out of a very toxic and controlling relationship previously where my ex didn’t want me leaving the house and doing ‘all the things I want to do’ so I’m reaching out here to get perspective that I’m not being too sensitive now? This is not the first time I’ve felt this way so not sure if it’s me..