A rock in a hard place

So I got myself into a sticky situation. Like the title says a rock in a hard place. And I know that I caused the situation but now I dont know what to do because my anxiety is turning things over way to much so maybe others on here will have some better insight.

So. I am married, it hasnt even been a year yet but for a lot of reasons he and I separated and I asked for a divorce. And now I am dating someone who I am also currently living with. And unknown to both of them on top of all the reasons that were putting a huge strain on everything. He was also a deciding factor in why I wanted a divorce. But they each think I had made the decision before getting together with the guy I'm dating currently. And yes I know this sounds cruddy of me. It's been 7 months since I separated from my husband. And 7 months dating the guy I'm with. My husband and I are on good terms, and honestly the relationship I am in is probably the best relationship I've ever been in. But turns out I might not be as over my husband as I thought. And now I find myself questioning if I want to get back together with him. But I love them both and I am unsure if I am actually want to get back together with him or if I'm wigging out because things are going to good and I'm just afraid of things going south. Or if I'm just doing this to ensure my future right now with our current arrangements. Or if I'm just afraid of hurting either of them and losing one from my life. Or both of them. It's all very confusing.