A very complicated me
I have a relationship with my marriage boss a happy family with 3 kids, a beautiful wife, wonderful house and everything in between. He life in different country with me, he visit me only everytime he have to do business. We had intimate relationship so intimate. I know its totally wrong but it's feel like i don't care anymore because I don't know whether im falling in love with him or am I just happy whenever I'm with him because somehow I cannot leave him. What make it even worse is I have a boyfriend which is he my husband to be and I can tell my boss the truth because I won't lose him, feel like i can't lose them both. Even though deep down in my heart i really want leave my boss but I dont have courage to tell him. This is very complicated and confusing, I'm too afraid to lose someone in my life especially someone who make me happy, they both make me happy. What should I do?:(
@Holyjul247
I have a relationship with my marriage boss a happy family with 3 kids, a beautiful wife, wonderful house and everything in between. He life in different country with me, he visit me only everytime he have to do business. (This is clear indication he sees you as a diversion and has no intention of making anything permanent with you) We had intimate relationship so intimate. I know its totally wrong but it's feel like i don't care anymore because I don't know whether im falling in love with him or am I just happy whenever I'm with him because somehow I cannot leave him. What make it even worse is I have a boyfriend which is he my husband to be (It seems this man is unaware of your relationship with the boss. Would you lose this man if he knew your truth or would he be able to move on?) and I can tell my boss the truth because I won't lose him (perhaps the boss does not need loyalty from you since he cannot provide it), feel like i can't lose them both. Even though deep down in my heart i really want leave my boss (you already know it can't last) but I dont have courage to tell him. This is very complicated and confusing, I'm too afraid to lose someone in my life especially someone who make me happy, they both make me happy (unfortunately your current path is bound to have you lose them both). What should I do?:( (Sustainable long term relationships take hard work and trust, honesty and respect. So sorry you're in this situation but you need to find the courage to step out of the bubble and claim your happiness. )
@0m
Thanks for the response, if sees me as a diversion why he took me to travel with him? I really didn't expect anything from him even i didn't expect he'll loves me or leaving his wife. Once we both agreed to end this relationship but at the end we just keep coming back to each other. And the thing is he is the one who always looking for me, and everytime he didn't looking for me i feel more fine. I keep blaming myself why i didn't have a courage to tell him the truth so he won't bother me anymore, why i keep thinking about his feelings mean while he will be fine without me tho
@Holyjul247
Thanks for the response, (you're welcome!) if sees me as a diversion why he took me to travel with him? (convenience? comfort?) I really didn't expect anything from him even i didn't expect he'll loves me or leaving his wife. Once we both agreed to end this relationship but at the end we just keep coming back to each other. And the thing is he is the one who always looking for me, and everytime he didn't looking for me i feel more fine. I keep blaming myself (so deep inside it's not what you need in your life) why i didn't have a courage to tell him the truth so he won't bother me anymore, (what is the cost of telling him the truth? What scares you?) why i keep thinking about his feelings mean while he will be fine without me tho
